“I just want to be your best friend. I knew you were so kind, but I just want to be your best friend,”
Two years since I confessed my feeling, I’m already letting him go and moving on. It was hard, it was tough to let someone who makes you fall into him. You were thinking, “I knew he was the one,” yet he is not the person. There are many people that you can look for in this world. Nevertheless, I don’t know why we are always the same. It doesn’t change to be the person who doesn’t know each other.
“I hope from this case we are still best friends. Our friendship has been for three years, and it takes a long time for this friendship. And do not ruin our friendship,”
He said that I did not need to cut off our friendship. Sometimes, I thought, ‘are we still the same as before? Really,’ I thought it was a wrong decision. Why do you want to keep the friendship? Because we have been friendship since day one in the university. Hence, I think it will be different, and he did not bring into reality if he was different after two weeks replied to my feeling.
You said you did need to give a distance to me, yet you gave me a distance,
It was the saddest time.
During that time, I realized that you did not need to believe in someone. You just believe in yourself and take care of yourself. I cried and I was thinking that I should let him go. Another time, I cried because of my foolishness to believe that he was the same as before and there was no difference. It was temporary happiness and became the longest sadness phase in my life. It takes one year to let him go and realize that he is not that person.
Why did you say that we can still be best friends?
Why did you always help me?
Why did you give me trust if you will keep our friendship?
Why did you leave me?
Was it wrong if I hope you to be my best friend after confessing my feeling? It was okay to let him go.
Delete a number and give a boundary.
Upgrading yourself to be better of yourself.
It’s okay, just give a distance.
I did not block him. I just take a time to realize that we cannot be a partner. You are so different and sometimes I think that ‘How could I fall into you?’ We are different and will never be the same.
I realize that we are different.
It takes time to let you go and start to get a better life for me. I don’t want to be sad again and passed the saddest phase in my life. I just want to be happy and find a new person on the right track for upgrading myself. After I let you go, you come to myself, and I have a boundary.
After I have a boundary, I know if you are still the same. You are not changing as a person, and you are always the same. You keep your promise when you replied to my confession. I remember when you said:
“We’re still best friends, if I become different just tell me. Do you understand that sometimes I don’t realize that? You have to tell, and you do not use any codes or words. We are human and we must help each other. If you need me just tell me and If I need you, I will call you later,”
Now, I realize that we need each other but we cannot to be a partner. We are just a friend and still best friends. I’m blessed that I could be your best friend. You could tell your days to me (even though not all the time). It was hard to begin a friendship with you because I knew you were different from all humans that I find in this universe.
