Being alone is a good idea. Sometimes we need time to think about ourselves. Moreover, people believe that being alone is the most wistful thing. They do not ever know how to go somewhere only by themselves. I remember someone said to me:
“When you go to someplace solely by yourself, it is sad and pitiful, also weird. Thus, we do not need about me time,”
Someone said that, and I just thought they did not know how pleasant it is to be alone. They don’t know how to go somewhere without bothering someone, and we do not need to wait for them for a long time only to choose what they want to decide.
I thought being alone would make me suffer, but it was not. Being alone is the best decision ever for me. Once in a while, loneliness makes us think less about something and focus on ourselves. Furthermore, loneliness makes me feel calm because I do not need to think about someone, although sometimes, I feel sad about loneliness.
Some people think having time is sad because they do not have a friend. They do not know fun when you are going somewhere only with yourself. For example, I want to buy ice cream, a book, and watch a movie in the cinema, but my friend does not like the movie, whereas I want to watch the movie. Rather than wait for my friend and end up, I do not watch the movie. I chose to watch the movie alone.
Someone asked me, “Did you not feel alone? Going somewhere only with yourself is the saddest thing I have ever heard, and you, like that, do not have a friend,” I just said “It’s a good decision. I can buy anything without waiting for my friend and attempt some cafe without feeling hesitant because of the taste and the price.
They do not know how we could go somewhere without feeling hesitant and free because we are not afraid of loneliness, and we already accept loneliness.
I thought that I needed a partner to go somewhere. Furthermore, it is fun if we go somewhere with a partner to take a photo together and have a memory of the place with them. Nevertheless, in the end, technology is increasingly advanced. Thus, I could take photos using a technology called Bluetooth shutter and tripod, and we could go somewhere solely ourselves. In addition, I was falling in love with someone and felt alone when I did not text him, but now it is not a big deal for me if I do not have a partner.
The day you were gone from my life; made me feel hollow.
Suddenly you disappeared from my life.
Without knowing where did you go, you are gone.
I thought it was my fault.
All of a sudden, you were gone.
Your disappearance ruined everything.
Your disappearance made me feel that I had lost something in myself.
Your disappearance was like I lost my puzzle on myself.
Some questions that I was always asking in my head were not answered.
Several things about you made me think that it was my fault.
Several things made me blame myself.
And I asked, “Why did you leave me?”
Without you, I feel lonely.
Without you, I feel hollow.
Without you, I feel crazy.
Without you, I feel lost.
I felt lonely when you were gone.
Everything changed quickly.
From alive to hollow.
From happiness to sadness.
I'd denied my feelings. Nevertheless, how could I accept that there were some rejections?
Acceptance is hard, and I thought, “I felt lonely when I did not text him,”
There was some me that I lost.
Some puzzles were lost.
In the end, I accepted life.
I realized that we need loneliness.
Loneliness taught me everything.
Loneliness made me accept everything that happened in my life.
In the end, we are only humans that always feel lonely. Nonetheless, only we saved our lives.
